Vaginal Mesh Sling

I know it's not the best topic, but since I am experiencing this, I thought it was important to share with others who may be or know someone who is, experiencing the same thing.

Symptoms of Vaginal Sling Side Effects

The use of bladder slings and vaginal mesh systems have caused a number of troubling problems for patients, prompting the FDA to issue a public health notification in 2008. The FDA notice warned of potential vaginal mesh complications, including infection, urinary problems, recurrence of prolapse or incontinence and mesh erosion, which may develop following mesh surgery. Signs which may indicate vaginal mesh side effects include the following:

• Vaginal infections
• Bleeding
• Vaginal discharge
• Pain during sex
• Lower backache
• Difficult bowel movements
• A feeling of something protruding from the vagina
• Bladder outlet obstruction

A recurring feeling of fullness or pressure in the lower abdomen and recurrence of prolapsed organs may also indicate that the condition, which the vaginal mesh intended to treat, has returned.

So hard to believe that my granddaughter, Aaliyah, will be 2 this month! Kai, Matthew, Ryan, Sarah, and Josh....all of them growing so fast.

Sometimes, I hate that I moved to Florida and away from my sister. I want to see her children on a regular basis like other family members and friends are able to do. Then, on the other hand, had I not left and moved to Florida, I wouldn't have had my other children or stepchildren and known them.

I miss family get togethers, big birthday parties, graduations, weddings, you name it....always something going on in a big, Italian family. I'm sad sometimes that my younger children did not get to know my parents, who passed away much too young, and my 2 youngest only have known one grandparent which is their father's mother. His father passed away long before the girls were born as did my parents, so Grandma Rose is all they know. Sean and Christopher have both parents on their paternal side so that's a plus!

I want to be a big part of my grandchildren's lives and build memories with them to last a lifetime.

Hoping for the answer.....

For the past few years, I have been having health complications that the doctors liked to explain as all either being diabetes related or happening with age. Yet I know how I feel. But explaining that to others without them thinking it's all in your head because every test comes up negative, is a whole other story.

So here's the deal. In 2003, I had a uterine ablation to stop my heavy menstrual cycle which pretty much had be in bed for hours on end. At the same time, I had a mesh sling placed to support my bladder with was out of place after bearing children. That was 9 years ago.

About a year or two after that, I started having recurrent UTI's, yeast infections, chronic fatigue, overall feeling or not being well, low grade fevers, and the list goes on. But since I was diagnosed in 2006 with Type 2 Diabetes, of course, it all had to be related, right? So, not knowing any better, I figured that was that. This past year and a half, I've felt worse and worse, had tests done, and back to the same conclusion, you're diabetic, you're getting older..blah blah.

Yesterday, I finally got to see a decent, human, gynecologist and after doing his exam, tells me that the mesh sling I had placed in 2003 has eroded and is causing sores inside my body and recommends I see a specialist as soon as possible to have this corrected.....

Gee..do ya THINK this could be the reason for all my issues recently? Maybe the reason why I have a white blood cell count 3 times higher than normal that no one can seem to find a reason for???? I wonder!

So, now, I have an appointment on Monday with a specialist and we'll find out what the next steps are. I have also researched and found that my sling manufacturer, along with several others, were taken off the market in 2008 for serious complications. Great. I love being me.

In The Arms Of The Angel Lyrics - Sara McLaughlin

Dedicated to my Mother

In The Arms Of The Angel Lyrics - Sara McLaughlin:

"Spend all your time waiting

For that second chance

For a break that would make it okay

Theres always one reason

To feel not good enough

And its hard at the end of the day

I need some distraction

Oh beautiful release

Memory seeps from my veins

Let me be empty

And weightless and maybe

Ill find some peace tonight

In the arms of an angel

Fly away from here

From this dark cold hotel room

And the endlessness that you fear

You are pulled from the wreckage

Of your silent reverie

Youre in the arms of the angel

May you find some comfort there

So tired of the straight line

And everywhere you turn

Theres vultures and thieves at your back

And the storm keeps on twisting

You keep on building the lie

That you make up for all that you lack

It dont make no difference

Escaping one last time

Its easier to believe in this sweet madness oh

This glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of an angel

Fly away from here

From this dark cold hotel room

And the endlessness that you fear

You are pulled from the wreckage

Of your silent reverie

Youre in the arms of the angel

May you find some comfort there

Youre in the arms of the angel

May you find some comfort here

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KORN - COMING UNDONE LYRICS

KORN - COMING UNDONE LYRICS:

Keep holdin' on when
My brain's tickin' like a bomb
Guess the black thoughts have
Come again to get me
Sweet bitter words
Unlike nothing I have heard
Sing along mocking bird
You don't affect me

That's right
Deliverance of my heart
Please strike
Be deliberate

Wait
I'm coming undone
Irate
I'm coming undone
Too late
I'm coming undone
What looks so strong so delicate
Wait
I'm starting to suffocate
And soon I anticipate
I'm coming undone
What looks so strong so delicate

Choke, choke again
I thought, my demons were my friends
Getting me in the end
They're out to get me
Since I was young
I've tasted sorrow on my tongue
And the sweet sugar gun
Does not protect me

That's right
Trigger between my eyes
Please strike
Make it quick now

Wait
I'm coming undone
Irate
I'm coming undone
Too late
I'm coming undone
What looks so strong so delicate
Wait
I'm starting to suffocate
And soon I anticipate
I'm coming undone
What looks so strong so delicate

I'm
Trying to hold it together
Head is lighter than a feather
Looks like I'm not getting better
Not getting better

Wait
I'm coming undone
Irate
I'm coming undone
Too late
I'm coming undone
What looks so strong so delicate
Wait
I'm starting to suffocate
And soon I anticipate
I'm coming undone
What looks so strong so delicate.

Serenity Prayer

My Mother's Favorite Prayer

Serenity Prayer: "Serenity Prayer: What are the words?
The Serenity Prayer goes like this --

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next. Amen.


This beautiful prayer was written by a man named Reinhold Niebuhr in 1943. The words have special meaning to those who are often “looking for peace” at a time of turmoil, despair, or uncertainty in their lives. This prayer has become closely associated with 12 Step programs, offering strength and calm in pursuit of a more stable life."

INSIDE US ALL Lyrics - CREED

INSIDE US ALL Lyrics - CREED: "Inside Us All lyrics
When I'm all alone
And no one else is there
Waiting by the phone
To remind me
I'm still here
When shadows paint the scenes
Where spotlights used to fall
And I'm left wondering
Is it really worth it all?

There's a peace inside us all
Let it be your friend
It will help you carry on In the end
There's a peace inside us all

Life can hold you down
When you're not looking up
Can't you hear the sounds?
Hearts beating out loud
Although the names change
Inside we're all the same
Why can't we tear down these walls?
To show the scars we're covering"

Things that make you go hmmmm

1. Why do we park in driveways and drive on parkways?

2. Do Lipton employees take coffee breaks?

3. Can I yell "movie" in a crowded firehouse?

4. Can you be a closet claustrophobic?

5. How do a fool and his money GET together?

6. Why does Hawaii have interstate highways?

7. How is it that a building burns up as it burns down?

8. If a train station is where the train stops, what is a workstation?

9. If nothing ever sticks to Teflon, how do they make Teflon stick to the pan?

10. If the pen is mightier than the sword, and a picture is worth a thousand words, how dangerous is a fax?

11. If the police arrest a mime, do they tell him he has the right to remain silent?

12. What hair color do they put on the driver's licenses of bald men?

13. What was the best thing before sliced bread?

14. Why do banks charge you a "non-sufficient funds" fee on money they already know you don't have?

15. Why do they put Braille on the drive through bank machines?

16. If Barbie is so popular, why do you have to buy her friends?

17. If you get cheated by the Better Business Bureau, who do you complain to?

18. What are Preparation A through Preparation G?

19. In a country of free speech, why are there phone bills?

20. Did Washington flash a quarter when asked for ID?

21. How come there aren't B batteries?

22. If the post office has machines that can sort snail mail at 1000's of times per minute, then why do they give it to a little old man on a bike to deliver?

23. How do "Do not walk on the grass" signs get there?

24. Why do black olives come in cans and green olives come in jars?

25. Before they invented drawing boards, what did they go back to?

26. How is it possible to have a civil war?

27. If all the world is a stage, where is the audience sitting?

28. If love is blind, why is lingerie so popular?

29. If the #2 pencil is so popular, why is it still #2?

30. Why is the alphabet in that order? Is it because of that song?

31. If I melt dry ice, can I take a bath without getting wet?

32. Crime doesn't pay...does that mean that my job is a crime?

33. How do they get the deer to cross at that yellow road sign?

34. How do you know that honesty is the best policy until you have tried some of the others?

35. How do you throw away a garbage can?

36. How does a thermos know if the drink should be hot or cold?

37. How does the guy who drives the snowplow get to work in the mornings?

38. Do you realize how many holes there could be if people would just take the time to take the dirt out of them?

39. If a word in the dictionary were misspelled, how would we know?

40. If you're in a vehicle going the speed of light, what happens when you turn on the headlights?

41. What happens to an 18 hour bra after 18 hours?

42. Why didn't Noah swat those two mosquitoes?

43. Why do hot dogs come 10 to a package and hot dog buns only 8?

44. Why do tourists go to the tops of tall buildings and then put money into telescopes so they can see things on the ground close-up?

45. Why is it that bullets ricochet off of Superman's chest, but he ducks when the gun is thrown at him?

46. Why is it that night falls but day breaks?

47. Why is it that you must wait until night to call it a day?

48. What if the Hokey Pokey IS what its all about?

Children updates

Sean: Hard to believe you are now 27 and a daddy! It was just yesterday I brought you home and did all the things you are now doing for your daughter. Aaliyah is such a beautiful baby girl and looks so much like you, it's eerie! Thank you for blessing me with such a gift.

Christopher: 21??? How is that possible? Just yesterday you were jumping from couch to couch and running around the house at the speed of light! I'm so amazed at how much you've grown and changed over the years. I know times haven't always been easy for you, but set your mind to it and anything is possible. I hope you reach for your goals and become the man I know you can be.

Amber: A few more months and my first girl will be 18!!! (OMG)

What can I say? I miss you so terribly, it's not funny. I love the fact that this time in NC has been catching up time for you and your sister who you are so much like. Yet, I miss the sound of your laughter and your voice and the random things you would do to make me smile for no reason at all. You are such a loving and beautiful person and I hope you will always stay that way.

Samantha: 15 already......wow. Time goes too quickly. We've been getting along somewhat better, and I really hope we will be very close someday. I think because you are so much like I was at your age, it's hard. I want to save you from all the heartache I had to go through because I've been there and know where you are headed. I also know that you are very beautiful, smart and VERY talented. You have so much potential and I will continue to push you to realize that potential until you see it for yourself too!. I love you so MUCH and not matter what you think about me, I will ALWAYS be here for you.

Wow, it's been a while. I get so caught up in the every day, that I forget I even have a blog!

It's been an interesting couple of weeks. I've been working and going to doctors appointments. Finally getting put on insulin, but will have to take three shots a day plus test my blood sugar three times a day and I am not looking forward to ANY of that. (sigh). But ya gotta do what ya gotta do.

Tomorrow night I will be working the cart at the Nonpoint concert @ Levelz. The house should be packed which is great for me. I love being able to see all the performances and go inside whenever I want in between working and also getting my umbrella signed by them when I get the chance. Keeps life interesting for sure!